Write On Wednesdays

Well, hello there reading world! I found a blogging event while bloghopping that I think is preeetty neat, so I'm excited to see how it goes! This weeks prompt was to take the first line of a song and write for five minutes with that as your inspiration. I chose Higher Window by Josh Groban. It's not my favorite song exactly (because it's secular instead of sacred) but I like it a *lot* and I thought the first line could make for an interesting tidbit =) So here goes!

♫For all the times I've tried for this...♪

She laid her head down on her desk, her long thick hair spreading around her, protecting her from the pressures of the outside world.
"Am I really going to do this again?"
She talked to herself often, had since childhood. She supposed it was the result of all the reading she had done over the years. Sometimes it felt as though she was narrating her own life in her head.
She lifted her head up and picked up the pencil she had dropped in frustration. Why was she doing this? She loved books and plays and art and clothes, and she desteded all things math. Why, year after year, did she aspire to this same goal that always seemed just out of reach? She had applied for Medical School five times now, and the application sitting blank on her desk would make six. She just wasn't sure she had the willpower left in her to go through this again. The hope would always surge as she put the envelope in the mail, and the crashing reality of each rejection.... Why did she continue to put herself through this? She was a smart girl, she had the ability, but for one reason or another, medical schools just didn't seem to want her. She was always missing something, always coming up just a bit short. She tried and tried and tried.... and failed and failed and failed and failed. So why did she keep trying?
Because it was her only dream.

The Only One That's True~

 So.... I used to really enjoy writing poetry. But I haven't done it in fooooreeeeveeeeer. So today I thought I'd try my hand at it once again. Here is my *quite* rusty attempt, it's something God has had on my heart for a while now!
The Only One That's True
My heart is afraid
To open to you,
For if you reject me
Then what will I do?
If you turn me away
Oh the heartache inside,
No, I think it's much better
To run and to hide.
It's happened before,
I've let someone in,
And they battered my heart
Left me broken within.
It takes so much courage
To not turn away,
And it seems so much safer
When I choose not to stay.
But what I don't realize
Is that you aren't the same
As the ones who've hurt me,
Who've left as they came.
You're different. You're holy.
And the love you have for me
Will always be constant,
So there's no need to flee.
The ones who have hurt me
Are nothing like you,
They're sinners and selfish:
O Lord, I am too!
Just as they've betrayed me
And broken my heart,
That's what I've done to you
Who loved me from the start!
Each time that I've sinned
Each time I ran away,
You lovingly forgave me
And pled with me to stay.
And though I've not been constant,
And strayed away from you,
You're still my hearts one safe place,
The only one that's true.